I like you.
I enjoy spending time with you
Your smile brings me joy
Your laugh brings me laughter
And yet, I’m scared, terrified even
I rather spend time with you, than get much needed sleep
I can already feel your pull, my desire to put you before myself
I want to run away from this, from the possiblity of repeating past mistakes and so many wrong turns
I want to block your number and forget your name because if you bring me as much pain as he did, this will be a suicide mission
My heart cannot again survive broken promises, lies, misconceptions, and unrequited feelings
I don’t fall in love often, only once actually, but when I fall, I fall hard
And I can already feel the familiarity of the magnetic force of gravity
Every hair on my body is standing, I’m covered in pins and needles hoping you don’t hurt me
There are no guarantees, but I need guarantees
I’m about to run, but you text me something loving and personal
I’m about to block you but then you ask me to come over, and I can’t help myself
I’m about to say something, anything that will ruin everything, so you leave faster than expected, but then you smile, and when you smile, it brings me joy; then you laugh, and I laugh; then you pull me in, into the crook of your shoulder where I fit perfectly, and I’m stuck in your centripetal force
I can’t move, I can’t stop being happy
I’m terrified
I’m scared that your smile will soon stop bringing me joy; your laughter no longer contagious, but malicious
It will only be a matter of time until you no longer send texts, or you cancel all invites, and you start verbally attacking me, and I’m stuck all over again in the eye of the storm, except this time there is no rescue mission, no second life, that’s it. game over.
This is what I’m praying with all of my being is never bound to happen. But then again, I like you.
Fantastic but very sad story.
really? how so?
Well from what I gather from it, the person who is writing likes the other person and wants to be happy with them. The other person is good and treats the writer well but then turns malicious eventually. This cycle always happens and the writer is hoping against hope that the other person will one day just treat them well continously.
Woops, I read that wrong. The writer left a malicious person and is hoping this new person will treat them well and not turn into the last person. My bad.